Primary School gathering

After 26 years, we met again today. Full of jokes... recalling childhood funs. Wonderful day!

Drama???

Was drama copied from real life or real life repeated the episodes of drama?

My mum was warded to the hospital for 68 days, all these while I was frightened by every phone calls that started with "6321 xxxx". Is either from the nurses, doctors or the business office (not enough funds in mum's medisave).

Mum gone through her spine operation (a major one!!!) on 11 July 2008, the moment she was pushed out of the OT, she was as white as a sheet of paper!!! Luckily she was alright the next day after blood infusion.

She was discharged to St Andrew's for rehab on 29 July 2008 & was warded to SGH again on 1 Aug 2008 due to chest pain & fast heartbeats. She refused to go to SGH however St Andrew's doctor insisted she should go to SGH A&E for a checkup. And we were told she has urine infection the next day.

I really don't understand why??? Urine infection can be so serious & it can't be detected or treated at the Community Hospital?

And for myself was caught with viral infection & my whole body ache like noone's business & was given 2 days medical leave. All I can do is to take the pain killer & lay on the bed, rest rest rest. It seemed like I have to admit I aged before my time, I tried to squat down to find a bottle of garlic bread spread, make me pulled my muscle above my knee & feeling numbness at my ankle area (can't go on medical leave on 30 July) & get to work till 12 midnight on 31 July & the shock of getting to send mum back to SGH on 1 Aug whereby she was only assigned to a bed after midnight & these are killing me.

Things just happened & I have no control over them or do I have a choice? Am I daring enough to stand up & voice out, would it really help??? Is this the right time to do so? I hate MONTH & QUARTEREND!!! I know, this is my job... I knew it!!!

Johnson appointed as the class monitor

"Mummy, I am appointed as the class monitor." - Johnson

Congrats Johnson, Mummy knew that you are the right choice & I'm proud of you. Thank you for helping out & fixing/cooking dinner for your silblings.

Mum in ICA

We were told that all investigations show negative results & the only outcome is bacteria infection, a kind of bacteria which is found in the mouth is attacking my mum's spine & seemed to be spreading upwards. They put mum on antibiotics. She was alert & stable yesterday as compared to Monday which I was shocked to see her state. And her kidney scan is normal.

Called the nurse this morning, was told there was blood in mum's stools & they will do anus scopy tomorrow. OMG, mum told me that the spicy food (black pepper meat, fish in spicy sauce) she had in the hospital has irritated her, would this causing the blood in her stools?

I was told of different conditions about mum each day & seeing her laying on the bed not able to move with all tubes attached onto her body is tearing me into pieces. With the advanced science & technology, why can't they expediate the treatment? I walked her to the A&E & now I'm seeing her laying on the bed helplessly, am I supposed to console myself that mum is there to do a full body checkup??? They have checked her from top to toe, internally & externally... what else next? Pls discharge my mum soon!!!

Report not out

After waiting for 7 long days & was told that if I want to meet up with the doctor I have to be at the hospital at 9am.

Rushed to the hospital at 8.45am & the nurse has informed the doctor that I'm there waiting for them. I waited patiently & no sign of the doctor till 9.45am. The volcano is erupting soon, I went to the nurse & get her to call the doctor again & he told the nurse that he didn't make any appointment to see me!!! OMG, I've informed the nurse I'll be there at 9am today to see the doctor as he is unable to call me!!!

Finally he arrived at mum's room & we were told that the result are out & showing that there is no sign of bacteria infection however the most important tissue report is not out yet, it will take 7 days to process!!!

7 days??? We were told 2-3 days & now he is telling us 7 days!!! I really dunno what has happened but today is the 7th day & he assured me that he has chased the lab for the report & this is top priority on his list. But till now, no news/call from the hospital yet.

我不喜欢这种感觉

是否一定要发生一些事情，我们才会发觉我们没有珍惜身边的一切呢？或许我只懂得埋头苦干，象头牛一样，天天只为了填饱家人的肚子，确保孩子们用功读书。我还会什么呢？

表姐说妈妈的大拇指圆圆的，好特别，他从小就很喜欢触摸他。为什么我没有发觉到呢？我连妈妈喜欢吃什么我也不知道，我是不是没有关心过他呢？

我不要也不喜欢这种感觉!

The wait

They extracted some bone & tumour tissue from mum's spine yesterday & we got to wait for another 2-3 days for the results.

Unknown

Not sure what has happened these few days, found myself rushing to the hospital to meet up this & that doctor & the same story was told to me by everyone. Nothing new!!!

Don't we already know what has happened, why can't they just do something to check on mum to see if the tumour is cancerous or beneign and decide what is our next action???

Mum's surgery

Met up with the surgeon this morning & was told that it is not advisable to do the ops today as mum is still having fever.

But the team doctors felt that I'm delaying the treatment for not making a swift decision, OMG, can't both team talk to each other??? Whom am I supposed to listen to???

Finally in the afternoon, they decided to schedule the operation on Monday.

Spoke to Cousin Esther & we suspected that the tumour would have been there for some time as mum used to have problem walking naturally. Perhaps with the surgery she will has less pain ... ...

Went back to office at 3.30pm to support the monthend closing... & luckily all countries closed by 9pm & left home about 10.30pm after I have completed my testing scenarios.

Tumour!!!

Received a call from the hospital, mum has to undergo a major spinal surgery tomorrow as they found tumour growing into her spine & in order to "save" the nerve, an operation to remove the spinal bone is critical.

OMG, should I agree to it??? Not knowing what kind of risk is involved & why this happened so suddenly???

Gave a call to Cousin Esther & she agreed to go to the hospital with me tomorrow to talk to the doctors. Thank goodness, she's there to help as I'm at a loss.

What has happened!!!

Received a call from mum this morning, she told me she can't walk at all, her legs are numb & stomach bloated.

I was shocked, she was alright yesterday. I took a cab to the hospital & managed to speak to the doctor & was told that the blood test yesterday show that mum is suffering from a form of joint inflammation (can't remember the scientific name) & they will have to do a MRI for her spine.

Hope mum is alright & stay positive!!!

Mum can walk on her own

Spoke to the doctor & was told that the scope showed that mum is having gastric & they have ruled out cancerous/tumour in her. When asked what about the thing that stuck in her oesophagus??? "We found nothing, sometimes CT scan is not so reliable." - OMG, then what is reliable???

Gave mum a call & she was so happy that she can walk to the toilet on her own as the doctor has removed the oxygen mask & the tubes from her hands. She sound more cheerful now but I can't visit her today as I got to work late.

Received a call from Cousin Ah Mo & he scolded me for not informing him about mum being hospitalised. Mum didn't want me to tell anyone cos she doesn't want to bother others. Luckily he is able to visit mum on my behalf .

We will refer……

My mum has been in the hospital for 2 days & I didn’t get to meet any of the doctors. Managed to find out from the nurse yesterday that mum is having urine infection. I’m surprised, will urine infection caused chest pain??? Giving them benefit of doubts.

Received a call from the doctor today & was told that they suspected mum is suffering from bone/muscle infection that leading to the pain. They will refer mum to the general surgeon for them to investigate further.

Called mum in the afternoon & knew that she was not given any food after breakfast & she was not on drip too cos she is going for a CT scan at 6pm.

Reached the hospital at 7.15pm & was surprised that mum has not gone for the scan. The nurse was shocked to see me & explained that there is some delay due to some other urgent cases. Another nurse explained that I can go to foodcourt to get some fruit juice for mum as hospital does not provide this & it would be alright for the patient to go without food/drip. I was shocked!!!

The answer I got from another nurse when I asked why mum was not on drip - “the doctor did not write that when they do their round, I’ll ask the on-call doctor later after her scan”. Would the doctor has forgot about this? Shouldn’t the nurse remind/ask the doctor on this?

Mum was sent for the CT scan at 8pm & when she was back to her bed, the nurse explained that too much water will cause breathlessness hence she is not given the drip.

妈妈第三次入院

第一次是在去年十二月，好害怕。
第二次是在上个月，有点害怕。
这一次，我似乎没有什么感觉了。只要医生能够检验出为什么这一个月来，妈妈会胸口痛，而把他的疼痛解决，我就心满意足了!

还好他的X光没有问题，只是有贫血，必须留院检查。

结婚纪念日

你记得十三年前的今天是我们行华人婚礼的日子吗？

束手无策

妈妈一直说胸口痛，到医院检查，医生都说没有事。可是她就是一直说痛，也不能肯定哪里痛，感到绝望。

我能做些什么呢？真是束手无策，我真希望疼痛是在我身，让我来承担一切的痛苦。

老天保佑，妈妈平平安安，身体健康吧!

Back from leave

Never-ending email, queries, things to follow-up!!! Alamak, what’s going on???

Planned to go gym today but got to cancel as I have to bring my laptop home tonight as I have a morning call at 7am tomorrow & there will be calls at 8pm to 11pm on Thurs & Friday!!! OMG!!! I need a break!!!

Falling into the deepest sea

My kids got their papers yesterday, I was shocked!!! Johnson got a pass for his Science & the rest … …

I gave up talking or nagging at that instant, I do not know what should be the appropriate reaction for that moment, had my dinner, did the minimal housework & headed straight to my bed (I was an ostrich at that very moment).

I refused to think nor talk, I can’t sleep too, I felt that I’m falling, falling into the deepest sea with my whole body relaxing, no struggling… no point crying or had I run out of tears? I believed you did your very best & the papers were really too difficult for your level. I believed in what you (they) told me, what can Mummy do to help??? I guaranteed even if you tell me, more computer games will help you pass your exams, I’ll let you play for 24 hours but please ensure you got good results end of this year (am I trying to sarcastic). Tell me, please spend some time to think about the resources you required!!!

I must be nuts… my kids never visit this blog at all!!!

My 1st sharing session with my team

Took several days to prepare the training materials & did some last minute update last night & today is the sharing session… very nervous.

As usual, my teammates are very supportive & we have a good laugh before the session started. It went on smoothly until… … … (hehehe, you must be laughing when you read this).

In-Step

Went to the gym again & was asked to join the In-Step class. As usual I am unable to catch up with the steps & instead of In-Step, I’m out of step!!!