I HATE IT

I hate it when they say, "You might have to accept the fact that she need to be on the wheelchair."

I HATE IT!!! I can try to accept but how about her??? Isn't it cruel???

Mum in ICA

We were told that all investigations show negative results & the only outcome is bacteria infection, a kind of bacteria which is found in the mouth is attacking my mum's spine & seemed to be spreading upwards. They put mum on antibiotics. She was alert & stable yesterday as compared to Monday which I was shocked to see her state. And her kidney scan is normal.

Called the nurse this morning, was told there was blood in mum's stools & they will do anus scopy tomorrow. OMG, mum told me that the spicy food (black pepper meat, fish in spicy sauce) she had in the hospital has irritated her, would this causing the blood in her stools?

I was told of different conditions about mum each day & seeing her laying on the bed not able to move with all tubes attached onto her body is tearing me into pieces. With the advanced science & technology, why can't they expediate the treatment? I walked her to the A&E & now I'm seeing her laying on the bed helplessly, am I supposed to console myself that mum is there to do a full body checkup??? They have checked her from top to toe, internally & externally... what else next? Pls discharge my mum soon!!!

Something for Jayden

"Can you help me to get 2 sets of clothes, socks, cap & ankle bracelet for baby? And tell him Ah Ma can't come to see him" - Mum

My tears rolled!!!

Tumour!!!

Received a call from the hospital, mum has to undergo a major spinal surgery tomorrow as they found tumour growing into her spine & in order to "save" the nerve, an operation to remove the spinal bone is critical.

OMG, should I agree to it??? Not knowing what kind of risk is involved & why this happened so suddenly???

Gave a call to Cousin Esther & she agreed to go to the hospital with me tomorrow to talk to the doctors. Thank goodness, she's there to help as I'm at a loss.

Gastric

The doctor didn't call today, went to check with the nurse & was told that the scope result show that mum is having gastric. Blurred... ... as long mum is alright.

Fever strike again

The doctor called to say that mum's CT scan showed that she has phneunomia & they found that something seemed to stuck in mum's oesophagus & they will arrange for scope tomorrow as mum is having fever. Would it be the fishbone???

We will refer……

My mum has been in the hospital for 2 days & I didn’t get to meet any of the doctors. Managed to find out from the nurse yesterday that mum is having urine infection. I’m surprised, will urine infection caused chest pain??? Giving them benefit of doubts.

Received a call from the doctor today & was told that they suspected mum is suffering from bone/muscle infection that leading to the pain. They will refer mum to the general surgeon for them to investigate further.

Called mum in the afternoon & knew that she was not given any food after breakfast & she was not on drip too cos she is going for a CT scan at 6pm.

Reached the hospital at 7.15pm & was surprised that mum has not gone for the scan. The nurse was shocked to see me & explained that there is some delay due to some other urgent cases. Another nurse explained that I can go to foodcourt to get some fruit juice for mum as hospital does not provide this & it would be alright for the patient to go without food/drip. I was shocked!!!

The answer I got from another nurse when I asked why mum was not on drip - “the doctor did not write that when they do their round, I’ll ask the on-call doctor later after her scan”. Would the doctor has forgot about this? Shouldn’t the nurse remind/ask the doctor on this?

Mum was sent for the CT scan at 8pm & when she was back to her bed, the nurse explained that too much water will cause breathlessness hence she is not given the drip.

妈妈第三次入院

第一次是在去年十二月，好害怕。
第二次是在上个月，有点害怕。
这一次，我似乎没有什么感觉了。只要医生能够检验出为什么这一个月来，妈妈会胸口痛，而把他的疼痛解决，我就心满意足了!

还好他的X光没有问题，只是有贫血，必须留院检查。

束手无策

妈妈一直说胸口痛，到医院检查，医生都说没有事。可是她就是一直说痛，也不能肯定哪里痛，感到绝望。

我能做些什么呢？真是束手无策，我真希望疼痛是在我身，让我来承担一切的痛苦。

老天保佑，妈妈平平安安，身体健康吧!

Falling into the deepest sea

My kids got their papers yesterday, I was shocked!!! Johnson got a pass for his Science & the rest … …

I gave up talking or nagging at that instant, I do not know what should be the appropriate reaction for that moment, had my dinner, did the minimal housework & headed straight to my bed (I was an ostrich at that very moment).

I refused to think nor talk, I can’t sleep too, I felt that I’m falling, falling into the deepest sea with my whole body relaxing, no struggling… no point crying or had I run out of tears? I believed you did your very best & the papers were really too difficult for your level. I believed in what you (they) told me, what can Mummy do to help??? I guaranteed even if you tell me, more computer games will help you pass your exams, I’ll let you play for 24 hours but please ensure you got good results end of this year (am I trying to sarcastic). Tell me, please spend some time to think about the resources you required!!!

I must be nuts… my kids never visit this blog at all!!!