Trap?

Life can be such a disappointment, if you have been working hard & giving your best to contribute to your role, yet people plot against you & you walked into the trap without even knowing it. Isn’t it stupid?

My duty to do so???

Whenever the quarterend rush is in, the heat is on... ... provided support for 10 hours each on Sat & Sun!!!

Still in office at this donkey hour & no one could advise the order status & yet communicate through sametime with CAPS on.

When come to dinner time, I was arrowed to place the order & due to a change of menu, people started to shout straight to my face... I didn't make the changes, why don't you shout at your boss??? To remind you, I've paid through my own card, do I have to do so??? Is it my duty to ensure food entered your mouth???

I did the call, just so happened that I am seated near your boss!!! To remind you, we are all colleagues, you got your pay & I got mine through working/slogging for the company, I don't owe you anything. Please mind your language/temper & more good things will come your way!!!

I HATE IT

I hate it when they say, "You might have to accept the fact that she need to be on the wheelchair."

I HATE IT!!! I can try to accept but how about her??? Isn't it cruel???

Drama???

Was drama copied from real life or real life repeated the episodes of drama?

My mum was warded to the hospital for 68 days, all these while I was frightened by every phone calls that started with "6321 xxxx". Is either from the nurses, doctors or the business office (not enough funds in mum's medisave).

Mum gone through her spine operation (a major one!!!) on 11 July 2008, the moment she was pushed out of the OT, she was as white as a sheet of paper!!! Luckily she was alright the next day after blood infusion.

She was discharged to St Andrew's for rehab on 29 July 2008 & was warded to SGH again on 1 Aug 2008 due to chest pain & fast heartbeats. She refused to go to SGH however St Andrew's doctor insisted she should go to SGH A&E for a checkup. And we were told she has urine infection the next day.

I really don't understand why??? Urine infection can be so serious & it can't be detected or treated at the Community Hospital?

And for myself was caught with viral infection & my whole body ache like noone's business & was given 2 days medical leave. All I can do is to take the pain killer & lay on the bed, rest rest rest. It seemed like I have to admit I aged before my time, I tried to squat down to find a bottle of garlic bread spread, make me pulled my muscle above my knee & feeling numbness at my ankle area (can't go on medical leave on 30 July) & get to work till 12 midnight on 31 July & the shock of getting to send mum back to SGH on 1 Aug whereby she was only assigned to a bed after midnight & these are killing me.

Things just happened & I have no control over them or do I have a choice? Am I daring enough to stand up & voice out, would it really help??? Is this the right time to do so? I hate MONTH & QUARTEREND!!! I know, this is my job... I knew it!!!

Johnson appointed as the class monitor

"Mummy, I am appointed as the class monitor." - Johnson

Congrats Johnson, Mummy knew that you are the right choice & I'm proud of you. Thank you for helping out & fixing/cooking dinner for your silblings.

Mum in ICA

We were told that all investigations show negative results & the only outcome is bacteria infection, a kind of bacteria which is found in the mouth is attacking my mum's spine & seemed to be spreading upwards. They put mum on antibiotics. She was alert & stable yesterday as compared to Monday which I was shocked to see her state. And her kidney scan is normal.

Called the nurse this morning, was told there was blood in mum's stools & they will do anus scopy tomorrow. OMG, mum told me that the spicy food (black pepper meat, fish in spicy sauce) she had in the hospital has irritated her, would this causing the blood in her stools?

I was told of different conditions about mum each day & seeing her laying on the bed not able to move with all tubes attached onto her body is tearing me into pieces. With the advanced science & technology, why can't they expediate the treatment? I walked her to the A&E & now I'm seeing her laying on the bed helplessly, am I supposed to console myself that mum is there to do a full body checkup??? They have checked her from top to toe, internally & externally... what else next? Pls discharge my mum soon!!!

Something for Jayden

"Can you help me to get 2 sets of clothes, socks, cap & ankle bracelet for baby? And tell him Ah Ma can't come to see him" - Mum

My tears rolled!!!

Arrival of Jayden

Little star Jayden has arrived after the long wait!!! Congrats Sis & Jeremy!!!

Showed mum the MMS which Sis sent & I believed she's glad to see him. Unable to bring mum to KKH as she is still hospitalised.

Report not out

After waiting for 7 long days & was told that if I want to meet up with the doctor I have to be at the hospital at 9am.

Rushed to the hospital at 8.45am & the nurse has informed the doctor that I'm there waiting for them. I waited patiently & no sign of the doctor till 9.45am. The volcano is erupting soon, I went to the nurse & get her to call the doctor again & he told the nurse that he didn't make any appointment to see me!!! OMG, I've informed the nurse I'll be there at 9am today to see the doctor as he is unable to call me!!!

Finally he arrived at mum's room & we were told that the result are out & showing that there is no sign of bacteria infection however the most important tissue report is not out yet, it will take 7 days to process!!!

7 days??? We were told 2-3 days & now he is telling us 7 days!!! I really dunno what has happened but today is the 7th day & he assured me that he has chased the lab for the report & this is top priority on his list. But till now, no news/call from the hospital yet.

我不喜欢这种感觉

是否一定要发生一些事情，我们才会发觉我们没有珍惜身边的一切呢？或许我只懂得埋头苦干，象头牛一样，天天只为了填饱家人的肚子，确保孩子们用功读书。我还会什么呢？

表姐说妈妈的大拇指圆圆的，好特别，他从小就很喜欢触摸他。为什么我没有发觉到呢？我连妈妈喜欢吃什么我也不知道，我是不是没有关心过他呢？

我不要也不喜欢这种感觉!

The wait

They extracted some bone & tumour tissue from mum's spine yesterday & we got to wait for another 2-3 days for the results.

Unknown

Not sure what has happened these few days, found myself rushing to the hospital to meet up this & that doctor & the same story was told to me by everyone. Nothing new!!!

Don't we already know what has happened, why can't they just do something to check on mum to see if the tumour is cancerous or beneign and decide what is our next action???

Mum's surgery

Met up with the surgeon this morning & was told that it is not advisable to do the ops today as mum is still having fever.

But the team doctors felt that I'm delaying the treatment for not making a swift decision, OMG, can't both team talk to each other??? Whom am I supposed to listen to???

Finally in the afternoon, they decided to schedule the operation on Monday.

Spoke to Cousin Esther & we suspected that the tumour would have been there for some time as mum used to have problem walking naturally. Perhaps with the surgery she will has less pain ... ...

Went back to office at 3.30pm to support the monthend closing... & luckily all countries closed by 9pm & left home about 10.30pm after I have completed my testing scenarios.

Tumour!!!

Received a call from the hospital, mum has to undergo a major spinal surgery tomorrow as they found tumour growing into her spine & in order to "save" the nerve, an operation to remove the spinal bone is critical.

OMG, should I agree to it??? Not knowing what kind of risk is involved & why this happened so suddenly???

Gave a call to Cousin Esther & she agreed to go to the hospital with me tomorrow to talk to the doctors. Thank goodness, she's there to help as I'm at a loss.

What has happened!!!

Received a call from mum this morning, she told me she can't walk at all, her legs are numb & stomach bloated.

I was shocked, she was alright yesterday. I took a cab to the hospital & managed to speak to the doctor & was told that the blood test yesterday show that mum is suffering from a form of joint inflammation (can't remember the scientific name) & they will have to do a MRI for her spine.

Hope mum is alright & stay positive!!!

Mum can walk on her own

Spoke to the doctor & was told that the scope showed that mum is having gastric & they have ruled out cancerous/tumour in her. When asked what about the thing that stuck in her oesophagus??? "We found nothing, sometimes CT scan is not so reliable." - OMG, then what is reliable???

Gave mum a call & she was so happy that she can walk to the toilet on her own as the doctor has removed the oxygen mask & the tubes from her hands. She sound more cheerful now but I can't visit her today as I got to work late.

Received a call from Cousin Ah Mo & he scolded me for not informing him about mum being hospitalised. Mum didn't want me to tell anyone cos she doesn't want to bother others. Luckily he is able to visit mum on my behalf .

Gastric

The doctor didn't call today, went to check with the nurse & was told that the scope result show that mum is having gastric. Blurred... ... as long mum is alright.

Fever strike again

The doctor called to say that mum's CT scan showed that she has phneunomia & they found that something seemed to stuck in mum's oesophagus & they will arrange for scope tomorrow as mum is having fever. Would it be the fishbone???

We will refer……

My mum has been in the hospital for 2 days & I didn’t get to meet any of the doctors. Managed to find out from the nurse yesterday that mum is having urine infection. I’m surprised, will urine infection caused chest pain??? Giving them benefit of doubts.

Received a call from the doctor today & was told that they suspected mum is suffering from bone/muscle infection that leading to the pain. They will refer mum to the general surgeon for them to investigate further.

Called mum in the afternoon & knew that she was not given any food after breakfast & she was not on drip too cos she is going for a CT scan at 6pm.

Reached the hospital at 7.15pm & was surprised that mum has not gone for the scan. The nurse was shocked to see me & explained that there is some delay due to some other urgent cases. Another nurse explained that I can go to foodcourt to get some fruit juice for mum as hospital does not provide this & it would be alright for the patient to go without food/drip. I was shocked!!!

The answer I got from another nurse when I asked why mum was not on drip - “the doctor did not write that when they do their round, I’ll ask the on-call doctor later after her scan”. Would the doctor has forgot about this? Shouldn’t the nurse remind/ask the doctor on this?

Mum was sent for the CT scan at 8pm & when she was back to her bed, the nurse explained that too much water will cause breathlessness hence she is not given the drip.

妈妈第三次入院

第一次是在去年十二月，好害怕。
第二次是在上个月，有点害怕。
这一次，我似乎没有什么感觉了。只要医生能够检验出为什么这一个月来，妈妈会胸口痛，而把他的疼痛解决，我就心满意足了!

还好他的X光没有问题，只是有贫血，必须留院检查。

结婚纪念日

你记得十三年前的今天是我们行华人婚礼的日子吗？

束手无策

妈妈一直说胸口痛，到医院检查，医生都说没有事。可是她就是一直说痛，也不能肯定哪里痛，感到绝望。

我能做些什么呢？真是束手无策，我真希望疼痛是在我身，让我来承担一切的痛苦。

老天保佑，妈妈平平安安，身体健康吧!

Back from leave

Never-ending email, queries, things to follow-up!!! Alamak, what’s going on???

Planned to go gym today but got to cancel as I have to bring my laptop home tonight as I have a morning call at 7am tomorrow & there will be calls at 8pm to 11pm on Thurs & Friday!!! OMG!!! I need a break!!!

My Secondary 1 form teacher

While helping Johnson to find out what is the requirement for DSA, I visited my Secondary School’s website & was glad to find my Secondary 1 form teacher teaching in the same school & he won the Caring Teacher Award!!! Congrats, Mr Tan!!!

Not sure if he will remember me if I were to drop him an email (alamak, no email address posted on the website)… he reminded me of Temasek Square (the drain cover where we have to stand if we can’t answer his question).

Falling into the deepest sea

My kids got their papers yesterday, I was shocked!!! Johnson got a pass for his Science & the rest … …

I gave up talking or nagging at that instant, I do not know what should be the appropriate reaction for that moment, had my dinner, did the minimal housework & headed straight to my bed (I was an ostrich at that very moment).

I refused to think nor talk, I can’t sleep too, I felt that I’m falling, falling into the deepest sea with my whole body relaxing, no struggling… no point crying or had I run out of tears? I believed you did your very best & the papers were really too difficult for your level. I believed in what you (they) told me, what can Mummy do to help??? I guaranteed even if you tell me, more computer games will help you pass your exams, I’ll let you play for 24 hours but please ensure you got good results end of this year (am I trying to sarcastic). Tell me, please spend some time to think about the resources you required!!!

I must be nuts… my kids never visit this blog at all!!!

Happy Mother's Day

Found Allyson & myself appearing in Carpe Diem's blog, thanks Nellie & George for posting.

"Mommy, I love you

For all that you do.

I'll kiss you and hug you

Cause you love me, too.

You feed me and read to me

And teach me to play,

So smile 'cause I love you

On this Mother's Day."

My 1st sharing session with my team

Took several days to prepare the training materials & did some last minute update last night & today is the sharing session… very nervous.

As usual, my teammates are very supportive & we have a good laugh before the session started. It went on smoothly until… … … (hehehe, you must be laughing when you read this).

Good morning!!!

I have to travel by BMW (bus, MRT, walk) to work after LG quit his job. It took me an hour to reach the office & I hated the journey - everyone's rushing & roads packed with vehicles.

While I was walking across the road, the uncle (security guard) shouted “good morning!” to me & without 2nd thought, I shouted “good morning!” with a wide smile on my face. Wow, uncle remembered me, I greeted him whenever I see him at the building entrance.

After a short distance, I saw the Malay security guard who used to work on night shift, smiling & waving at me through the glass panel. Another smiling face!

Upon arriving the office entrance, I said “good morning” to the guard & he smiled & returned with these 2 words “good morning”!

When I was at my desk, the cleaner aunt said “good morning” to me as she cleared my rubbish bin. Wow, isn’t it great!!!

Just 2 simple words, it really brightened up my boring day/trip!!!

P.S. Rosz told me that I'm a simple & easy contented person. But I just love the feeling of people reciprocate the same greeting we gave them everyday!!!

Flu bugs

The flu bugs has not spared anyone in the family... we are down with fever, flu, cough, sore thoat... ...

No more gym for me (for the time being), perhaps this is a good excuse!!?? And was "suan" by my colleague, "I thought your health has improved after going to gym, yet... ..."

You Win!!!

On Standby mode

Don’t feel like doing anything. Sleep throughout the whole afternoon & had pizza for dinner.

Thanks LG, I know you knew that I have not got over yesterday’s incident.

人非圣贤

哎呀! 在这紧要关头犯错，怎么办! 好紧张，手都冷了，相信我的声音也在颤抖吧!

你这个完美主意者是否对自己要求太高了呢？谁不犯错呢？可是当我听到客户可能因为这样取消订单，我快疯了! 冷静冷静，你一定要保持冷静! 老板已经在帮忙了，就别担心了。回家好好睡一觉吧!

哎，好难过呀!

In-Step

Went to the gym again & was asked to join the In-Step class. As usual I am unable to catch up with the steps & instead of In-Step, I’m out of step!!!

Workout

After recuperated for 1 week, I went to the gym all by myself. I was told that there will be no aerobic class today as not much people turned up, so I decided to work on the machine with the help of the Instructor.

Pick Concall from home

Another concall with US & I can use my cordless phone with mute function but… … my wireless is not working. I’ll have to pick the call in my sitting room & mum has to watch TV in my room. Sad.

Bodyache

Pain, pain, pain, every part of my body are aching after the aerobics. Serve you right for not exercising!

First visit to the Gym

This is my first visit to the Gym with Eliz & signed up for the day’s boxercise class (first try too). I found myself breathless after 30 mins of jumping & boxing but it was kind of fun especially when my shoe sole came off & I have to exercise with my barefoot (with socks on only).

New Handphone

Got this new handphone during the M1 Roadshow FOC!!! I love the 3.2 mega pixel camera, now I can post nicer pictures!!!

Your birthday present

Johnson : "Mummy, this is your birthday present."

Mummy : "But, not my birthday yet."

Johnson : "Nevermind lah, I scare I got no money by that time."

Faint... ...

Appreciation Session

Johnson attended the “Motivational & Skill Improvement Camp” organised by Adam Khoo's team for the past 2 days & today is the last session whereby parents are invited to attend the “Appreciation session”.

Most of the parents or I would say all (including some teachers) cried during the session, it was so touching. Kids were asked to go up to stage to show their appreciation to their parents or apologized to their parents for their misbehaviors & some were not even able to speak up as they were crying.

I really hate that moment... ...

Nasty act

I do wonder why Johnson's classmate/schoolmate would do such a thing!!!

There were needle holes found on Johnson's water bottle which caused leakage.

Going to the movie

This is the first time, Chin Family of 6 went to watch movie!!!

Piglet

“Mummy, nice?” - Allyson

“Very nice!!!”

心痛

当我看到Johnson跌倒的那一刻，我真的吓了一跳。还好他马上爬起来说没事。

可是当他再爬上两级扶梯时，又摔了一跤。我禁不住喊了出来：” 你还好吧？“他对我笑了，好尴尬的笑。

继续往上爬，可是又再摔跤。”你还好吧？为什么一直跌倒？有受伤吗？“哈哈哈，他直对我傻笑。妈妈知道你一定很痛，那是铁制的扶梯啊! 为什么不开动呢？是为了省电吗？心里真的好恨商场管理处。。。我的心也跟着他的每一跌，沉了下去。好痛好痛，我真正明白什么是打在儿身，痛在我心，我好怕好怕，我根本没有办法帮他(因为我用楼梯，他用没开动的扶梯)，只能睁着眼看着他跌了一次又一次。那种爱莫能助的感受，我真的快疯掉了!

到达了百力果，马上查看Johnson的伤势 - 擦破了右膝盖，左膝盖也红了，手指也擦伤了。妈妈好心痛，一定很痛很痛，可是妈妈知道你好勇敢，一直说不痛不痛，没事没事。你真的长大了!

100/100 for Chinese Spelling

“Mummy, I got 100 points for my Chinese spelling, who to sign, you or daddy?” asked Randson.

“Of cos, Daddy sign lah.”

Regular!!!

Finally I’m converted to a regular after 7 years of long waiting. Have to thank the new Management team for their kind approval & support.

98/100 for Chinese Spelling

Nickson called to inform that he has 98/100 for his Chinese Spelling & teacher gave him 2 Coca-Cola sweets as reward. I’m glad to hear that, jiayou jiayou!!!

Sarah's last day

Sarah is leaving us to be a SAHM ... ...

Department Lunch

We have our department lunch today & look at the spread :
Some group photos :
Low was on medical leave today, too bad, his food goes to the ...(just joking)

Lion Dance at Carpe Diem

This is really something different, the childcare invited the Lion Troupe to perform for the kids :

Allyson with Teacher Nellie & friends :



Allyson cried after the Lion Dance performance, perhaps she is afraid.

Second day of CNY

Third Aunt's place... ... yummy steamboat for dinner!!!

First Day of CNY

Place to visit : Father-in-law's & mum's house.












Goodies from our Malay neighbours :

Reunion dinner

Sis & brother-in-law came to our place for reunion dinner - Steamboat + terpanyani as per sis' request.

Boring

There are lots of things to clear but not in the right mood to do anything.

Rosz used to say she has a crazy mentor, here are the proofs of my craziness:

Though we have to work till 12 midnight, we had a good dinner complimentary from Low :

Randson looking for help

Wendy (my 9th floor neighbour) has offered to coach Randson this year, I really appreciated it. But she was away to teach the students to make flowers in school so Randson escaped the coaching yesterday.

I was surprised to receive a call from Randson today, telling me that he would like to go upstairs to Wendy’s house as he needed help for his homework & he knew that I have to work late today. What a relief, after all my son is still a keen learner, keep it up!!!

P.S. Wendy whom is a parent volunteer & she offered to coach Randson since last year. Thank you very much Wendy!!! She’s a rare GEM!

Shepherd pie from Low

Low ordered this from Diana & he shared it with us.

Mute phone

Attended a concall session from home last week & had a hard time maintaining quietness in the call as I do not have a mute function on the phone. When LG knew about this, he got me a new phone with speaker & mute function. Thank you so much!!!

Found this cleansing kit during spring cleaning, wow it has been living in my wardrobe for years.

More paintings

Allyson painted these, a rocket & caterpillar.

Thank you gift from Roy

Got the these from Roy, isn't it cute?

Mummy & baby

Allyson loves to take photos with Mummy.

Farewell lunch for Roy

Roy’s last day with us will be on 17 Jan 2008 & we bought him lunch today. Look at the stacks of plates!!!

Belated Christmas Present

Finally I managed to get it done, the belated Christmas Present for Cynthia.

No more bed

The kids has requested for a 3-tier bed as they felt uncomfortable squeezing on the King size bed but after a trip to the haunted house in Downtown East, no one dare to sleep on the upper deck.

LG decided to remove the bed & changed to tatami.

New rice cooker

I was thinking of changing the rice cooker yesterday as the inner pot has corroded & bingo, LG bought a new one today.

Everyone is a winner

The school kicked off the year with lots of activities & every student was given a gold medal as an appreciation of their participation & it also acted as a form of encouragement that everyone is a winner.

Don’t think my kids got this in their mind, the first thing they told me was “teacher say this is made of gold, let’s sell it off & get some money”. Hiaz L

Happy Birthday to Johnson

We celebrated Johnson's birthday today with his favourite Mango cake. May all your wishes come true & pass your PSLE with flying colours!!!

First Day of school

It is not easy to wake up at 5.30am to prepare breakfast for the kids & send them to school by 7am. Nevertheless, this will be the routine for Year 2008 & it is great to see them have a good breakfast & bring on a smile to the school.

Happy New Year!!!

Wanted to start a new Year 2008 blog but don't really have the time. Decided to continue from here with a new counter in place.